dreams. moments. blue skies.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

envy is me

Even Zoe has job woes during pregnancy.
So who am i to complain then?
It is a fact - once u get preggies in Singapore, bid farewell to ur career.

Here's another beautiful mum, Japanese model Ai Tominaga.

And i thought Shu Qi looked really radiant and pretty during her recent press trip here.


Yes, envy runs deep in me.
They are all slim and beautiful while I look like a fat sow.
Damn sad.







waiting......

One more month to D-Day.
Literally...it being delivery day.
Tentatively -- 28 August.

I cannot wait to:


- See my baby boy (who will he look like???!!, how big will he be? fair like me or dark like his dad? will he have loads hair or be pretty bald? will he be a smartie pants??)

- Carry my baby boy (exactly how much of my weight gain is his body weight??!) and see Terence carrying him ( i think i will cry at that sight)

- See him in the new cutesy miniature clothes we bought him

- Hear him cry (will his voice be high or normal?)

- Bring him home and see him fill up the space with his cries

- See him sleep in the new perfect white lovely baby cot we bought him (that just arrived this
morning! its so perfect!)

- show him off to his grandparents, great-grandparents and super young aunties/uncles and grand aunties/uncles

- throw his baby shower with loads laughter, love and pressies for him

- register his birth and collect his birth certificate (Marco Woo enters the world!)

- going out as a complete family with him and Terence, my 2 boys and twin loves of my life.


It really feels good to be a young mum.
I feel so full of energy and life even as at 8 1/2 months. Incredible.
I'm still working, shopping, chilling around and very much myself.
Obviously it cannot be compared to pre-pregnancy days but i'm amazed at my own energy.
Strangers and acquaintances think i'm about 5-6 months pregnant max.
I take that as a compliment.

I look at some older pregnant women and they certainly look v different.
The fatigue on their grey faces, the clothes they wear etc.
Besides, it's nice to have cool frens around at the baby shower,
and to be the first to have a baby among your friends.
Knowing you have been thru something so M-A-J-O-R
When others are still bidding their time and fate.



At the same time, i cannot wait to be able to exercise and run, run, run.
I miss it sooooooo much.
I think i'll sign up for the year-end half marathon, just to run to my heart's content.
I miss doing yoga too. Feeling that good stretch in your limbs.
My idea of a perfect day always starts with a good long run, followed by a 20-min quick yoga/stretching session.

I guess in essence, i just miss being out in the open.
Inhaling fresh air at dawn, feeling my heart race so fast, sweating it out, getting that all-familiar ache/boost/kick through all your bones, being at one with my body, the road and nature.
Rrrreally need a good sweat session.



Cool Running Sites to Get Inspired:

http://nikerunning.com.sg/

http://www.coolrunning.com/

http://www.runtheplanet.com/

http://thedreamrunner.blogspot.com/ (a Singaporean's running blog)

http://completerunning.com/running-blogs/ (Local running scene)

Monday, July 30, 2007

JB day trip

Yesterday was memorable.
Me and Terence had such a huge fight.
By the end of it, he made me realise how insensitive, selfish, snobbish and critical I am.

I don't wish to forget this.
He's never one to complain, and tis the first time he's airing this out.
I was taken aback...cos I really didn't see the huge fight coming.
It started out innocently enough, about him being pissed with me for not crossing the road properly.
Who would have thought?

I cried and thought, thought and cried.
I haven't felt so sad for a long while. Never felt so much despise for myself.
So angry with myself and hating myself so much for being a mean, horrible person.
I know i can be terrible if left unchecked.
I know i take him for granted.
I know I impose double standards all the time.
I know i am a terrible, mean witch.

Today, we went to JB City Square mall.
Took the day off and hailed a local cab for the return trip.
So-so day walking around the mall, which is full of Singaporean brands like MPH, Popular bookstore, Cathay Cineleisure, Action city toy shop, Food Junction (!!!) and Kenny Rogers.
In other words, boring.
The most exciting part was when we goofed around in the Neoprint booth, camera-whoring with stupid poses and blowing RM$50 on those kiddy Jap cards.
Had Japanese lunch and also wasted time in a cafe before finally leaving at 4+ pm.

It felt different though.
He's very protective as always.
Sometimes when we are travelling, i feel like i have a bodyguard with him around.
But something jus felt different.
Maybe its the aftermath of the huge quarrel.

Last nite, I asked myself:
How would it feel to love someone who doesn't love you anymore?
How would it feel to continue loving that person, knowing that his heart is not like before?

That would be the worst case scenario.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

off day



Finally caught Harry Potter & friends last nite.

Interesting movie, but Daniel Radcliffe has grown an awful lot, hasn't he?

Anyway, just one of those blockbusters u watch when there's nothing else on offer at the theatres. Not fantastic, just a nice lil fantasy world of castles, witches, wizards, demons, crisp English accents, dungeons and magic wands. These are enough to entertain for 2 hours.

Am off today.

Finally wrapped up my August issue of the magazine.

I quite like it, partly cos Stephanie Carrington is on the cover.

She's the uber-hot Korean-American model-host that's hosting AXN's SonyStyle on TV now. Very pretty and impossibly good complexion.
Everyone at the shoot was smitten!

Things to do today:

- Eyebrow Shaping at Browhaus

- Buy new Liverpool training jersey for Terence at adidas boutique

- Have homecooked lunch at his shop

- Salon blowdry

- Keep clean laundry

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

i love crabs







Recent pix.
We had chilli crab and looooads of sumptious stuff at the Ritz Carlton's Greenhouse restaurant on Sunday.
The buffet was seriously sooo good.
I haven't enjoyed a buffet this fantastic for the longest time.
In case you think we had too much cash to spare, it was actually 2 vouchers for Terence's birthday from his mum.
But its really da best buffet spread.
The chilli crabs were awesome, as were the veal shank, pork knuckles, pasta, fish and seafood platters.
And the dessert variety was just awesome.
I really wish to go again.
The rest of the pix were taken on his birthday at KBox at Cathay.
We went for some sing-along before heading for his surprise dinner at Hanabi.
Lovely day that I didn't wanna forget.
Though its like, oops, 2 weeks ago alredi.
















Tuesday, July 24, 2007

photoshop




I am in the trade of making cover personalities beautiful,
but sometimes, the sheer hypocrisy and deception is a horror to admit.
Jezebel.com got the before/after of this Faith Hill cover shoot for Redbook magazine.
Wrinkle-free, with supple, smooth, line-free skin, svelte body.
What an utter lie.


Check out how that ugly lump of flesh from the back of her dress was also re-contoured.
As are the wrinkles etc.
But at least this proves Faith Hill is not one from the Botox-ed set.





The truth is, my designer does this all the time too.
He gives makeovers, boob jobs and liposuctions all the time to our cover models.
He can make you thinner/shapelier/more radiant/tanned/fair.... almost whatever you wish to be.
Why is the media so sick?
It's just catering to the demand, i guess.
Hardly anyone is inspired by flab, age, wrinkles or saggy skin.
We all desire model-like qualities - youthfulness, svelte legs, radiant skin, shiny hair, wide-set eyes, the glamour, the poise, the confidence.





On another note, the headhunter has been quite persistent.
But i haven't broke the news yet that I'm pregnant.
D-Day awaits.
The position is quite interesting and something I've not tried before.
Still journalism-related, so it should not be a problem.
Oh well, we will see.
Be where the Lord wants me to be.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Lauren Bacall

A lovely interview with actress Lauren Bacall.
I think she's an incredibly strong and optimistic lady.
With a knowing pragmatism and acceptance for all that life throws at us.

On her husband who died in the 50s:

"I think about Bogey a lot, but I don’t say, ‘Oh I wish…" I don’t think that way. If you live that way, you lose today, and I feel that today is very important. It’s the only thing that matters, really. Just to see if you are going to make it to tomorrow…”

zoom-zoom

My genius bro Leon is back from his 3-month vacation in Adelaide.
And now, my PC is working better than ever!

He sped it up so much, and fixed/tuned whatever that it works like a brand new PC all over again.
Although it is quite new to begin with - 2 months old.
But for some reason, probably cos my other bro Aloysius wasn't as genius in fixing it up, it was very laggy and had all sorts of probs at the beginning.

Now its like zoom-zoom all the way.
I'm really impressed.
How and when the hell did he get so genius?
He's really quite brilliant, i have to say.
Clearly his tech know-how is unique to him alone and does not run in the family.


Happie!!!

Friday, July 20, 2007

surprise call

Surprise!
Received a call from a headhunter today.
It is fun and flattering... but

If my pregnancy/maternity/impending motherhood, whatever thwarts yet another job offer,
I'll be really...... gutted!!!!


Thursday, July 19, 2007

Mint Toy Museum


Attended a Body Shop press event ystday at the most interesting venue.
I didn't even know Singapore has a vintage toy museum.

It's really idyllic and child-like, and I love it!
It's all toys from our childhood and beyond...from the ages when toys were hand-made, non-techie and reflected the ways of people's lives.
There were all those dolls, toy cars of every sort, toys that acted as war propaganda, original limited edition stuff, Tin Tin memorabilia (!!!), Beatles vintage stuff etc etc.

4 floors of exciting childhood stuff + a cool and cosy underground cafe.
Why is it I never knew this place existed?
This plc really harked back to a different era.

The curator was right when he said...
Toys back then were made in various countries and their differences were very distinct.
Germany and Japan produced a lot... and you can really tell the difference.
Now, everything is simply stamped 'Made in China'.

I loved the Tin Tin posters and artworks so much i wanted to buy some home.
It really is pretty cool.
Me and my brothers devoured so many Tin Tin comics when we were younger.
It really brought back happy times.

Drop by if u can.
It's a lovely lil' known place tucked away at Seah Street, just opp Raffles Hotel.
Click here for directions.










whether u like it or not

"[Fashion...] is the one piece of culture that every single person in the world participates in. Not everybody reads poetry or listens to music, but every single person in the world gets up in the morning and puts on something, and whether you like it or not, that’s a statement about who you are.”


- From a biographical piece on the late Isabella Blow

Monday, July 16, 2007

HoLeeDae


MELBOURNE


PARIS


Was at a friend's photoblog.
Of her travels to everywhere -- Europe, Korea, Japan, NY, NZ.
This year alone.
Yes, looking at those pics sting.

I really think me and Terence so deserve a break.
We went HK, BKK, Bintan and KL together before the pregnancy came up.
I thot we were on to a pretty good momentum.
You know, travelling comfortably every few months and enjoying ourselves without blowing too much $$$.
We are similiar travellers - want comfort, not luxury. Willing to walk a lot. Not too excited abt shopping. Love new experiences outside of shopping malls. Will miss home after a trip.

Then suddenly, we couldn't even go on our honeymoon.
Not even to Bali.
And have been shackled with the baby, the house, money etc etc.

Maybe i'm biased, and everyone else slogs just as hard or is just as deserving.
But I think we are the 2 people ard who really need a serious break.
A break away from Singapore, away from our lives and a break to feel young again.

There are so many places I want to discover with him.
He is a great travel buddy, even if he's not my husband.
He's very adaptable, ok with everything, street smart and very adventurous.
And we usually like the same things and places.

I'd love to bring him to Australia.
He'll love the food for one, those meats and steaks and Western crap.
And the awesome weather.
I'll love the huge open spaces, the colours, the cool weather and the Aussie familiarity.

We've discussed cheaper Asian routes before too.
Vietnam and Thailand's unchartered spots like Hua Hin, Chiang Mai etc.
I am quite sick of getting Thai stamps on my passport, so perhaps Vietnam may be more enticing.

I crave a real holiday.
Not a break at a resort spa or one of those chi-chi things.
We're too young for that.
I yearn to visit Europe, even tho i have serious air-sickness and dunno how I'll ever survive the flights.
Wouldn't it be amazing to be on a faraway continent with my beloved, exploring all the histories, romance and cultures of the Western world?


I'd really love to see France, Italy, Spain and Japan.
Ah, my dreams are made of these....

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Model Mum






Is it fair or even mortal that Russian supermodel Natalia V
can be so gorgeous AND a mother of 3?








the Bs




David Beckham hasn't even so much as kicked a ball in LA,
And the press has alredi went mad over their migration.
They even landed the cover of W mag.
Don't like the shoot much - its too D&G and Italian.
The thing is, everyone knows how much Posh B has done to her body.
Implants, surgery, lipo watever...
But check out David B.
Surely that body is all-natural and a natural reflection of his training?
What a hot male bod. It's almost... too perfect.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

snack attack in my office!

Am i very mean if i told my colleague to stop eating in the room?
She is eating so much that ants are invading!
She is new, but gosh, she really can eat..and eat..and eat...........!
Non-stop from the time she steps in till she leaves.
After lunch, she even buys back dessert to continute eating!
Not small desserts, mind you. We're talking like those that comes in a bowl, like peanut paste, mango ice pudding, chng teng, ice kachang etc etc.

She munches so much it's scaring me!
Snacks, chocolates, chips, fruits, drinks, desserts everything and anything through out the day.
In all my years of working, i've never met someone who can snack so much.
No wonder she's so big-boned.
Not fat or obese, just a very big-sized person.
Imagine if she's pregnant??!!! She'll be eating like twice as much!

Anyway, i was fed up with it and told her to stop eating in the room.
We have a spare room next door, so i told her to bring her food there if she wants to eat.
She's only been here barely a month, but is so not pai seh about eating all-day-long.
Hats off to her.

On another note, i caught Transformers last nite.
Jerry raved abt it so much, he sms-ed me from Seoul just to say how great it was.
But frankly, it just wasn't my kinda movie.
Very blockbuster-ish, full of effects, sound, fantasy and fury.
Perhaps it'll be nice to a lot of people, but it was frankly too low-brow, Hollywood and plastic for my liking.
It only reminded me of my brother Leon, who was so obsessed about Transformers when we were kids.
It was his sole crazy obsession before computers, and our whole house was strewn with those foldable creatures.

The lead actress Megan Fox was really hot though.
Another of those hybrid good-lookers, you know, model-become-actress types.
But what was uncomfortable was that she reminded me of a younger, not-so-Botoxed Janice Dickinson. (a.k.a. that bitchy/slut judge from America's Next Top Model).
Josh Duhamel, the good hero/captain in the show, was also super cute.
So kudos to the good casting.

Monday, July 09, 2007

Eat Cake



Whooopee!
I just ordered Terence's birthday cake!
Rum and raisin HD ice-cream, wrapped in yumz yumz Belgian chocolate.
Fenced in with chocolate sticks!
Perrrfect!!!

Friday, July 06, 2007

cupid



Really wanted to kick myself for forgetting my cam today.
Wanted so much to take pics of the fantastic lunch Terence cooked for me.
He ventured out of his comfort zone (all of 3 dishes) to try 2 new ones.
Yong tau fu + broccoli with fish slices. And it was successful.
I was really happie.
Small things that made my day.

Last nite was really sweet.
Both of us couldn't sleep... lights were out. It was only 12+am.
I thought he was sleeping, so i kept quiet, daydreaming away.
Then suddenly, music played from his cellphone.
Our wedding song.
Then i realised he couldn't sleep too.
It felt really nice listening to the music in the darkness.
It brought back all the memories of our wedding nite.

Then we listened to all the other songs we love...
Until we both felt sleepy.
It was dreamy, sweet and pretty romantic.


"Love looks not with the eyes,but with the mind;
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind"
- William Shakepeare

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get,
only with what you are expected to give...which is everything."
- Katherine Hepburn

Thursday, July 05, 2007

What No One Told Me About Pregnancy

The Obvious:


- can't shop, can't fit into anything

- no life

- fat + ugly





The Not-So-Obvious Bits No One Talks About

1. You feel estranged from your friends, colleagues, other non-pregnant folks.

2. You are constantly tired and 'not-in-the-mood'.

3. Your huge size makes you feel awkward + uncomfortable + conspicuous.

4. Others stare. Rudely.

5. The tummy is a big, heavy load and you get sick of lugging it around.

6. Your face expands accordingly to your belly.

7. It is a sickening chore to apply anti-stretchmark cream every bloody day. It's oily, sticky and makes you feel tubby all over. Plus, it takes forever to be absorbed!

8. You constantly feel warm. Super H-O-T, sticky and dirty 24/7.

9. You have zero social life. + no sports. It is a boring existence.

10. You eat all the time. Everything seems to taste nicer during pregnancy!



The OK Bits
- Baby shopping is truly a pleasure. Somehow, its easy to fall in love with miniature, soft, cuddly, innocent stuff.

- You feel that nothing can ever be more yours than your own baby. Not even your own husband.

- Strangers are nice to you, especially those who have kids.

- You feel that you have something in ur life way more meaningful than work/material comforts/money/friends/relationships etc can ever provide.

- Life has a new meaning and purpose. Your life gets... bigger and is more than about yourself.

- You feel happier about your marriage and your home, to be able to create a small family with your husband. It's meaningful, fulfilling, humbling, enriching, bold and a giant leap forth.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

His Love

It's Terence's birthday next Friday.
His grand 30th. Alreadi??
Gosh, we met when he was only 23 and me 19!

Anyway, i've got his birthday pressies.
1. A beautiful leather Dunhill bag
2. A black CK card-holder
3. A Gelare rum-and-raisin ice-cream cake

The only thing left is....
should i book a KTV room for his frens to join in the celebration?
After all, it's a Friday nite and he'd probably love for his buddies to be there.
It'll be a big surprise for him.
But i dunno if his frens are up for it.
So troublesome, gotta contact them one by one.

Anyway, Terence & I fought on Saturday. The day before Qiu's wedding.
I can't remember why, except that it started in the morning.
Big tiff that lasted the whole day.
Where i didn't even want him to come home.
He was prepared to sleep at his parents place or in his car.
But finally i relented at abt midnite.

The next morning, I had to reach Qiu's house at 430am.
Despite our fight and bad tension, he woke up at 4am to fetch me there.
And then.... waited downstairs at her void deck till 645am.
Just to fetch me home.
He said he saw the groom and his entourage arrive at 5.45am, saw them cussing and smoking at the unearthly hour, heard the din upstairs, entertained himself with music on his hp, tried to sleep but couldn't, walked ard the void deck...to pass the 2hrs.

Ok, i am touched. End of quarrel.

[Cos of my pregnancy, i had to leave b4 she reaches the groom's place. Otherwise, apparently will 'clash' and is not good for baby.]


And then on Monday, i said i had a craving for pasta + broccoli.
One of my weird cravings out of the blue.
He said he'll cook for me. So i agreed to come down to his shop for lunch.
Little did i know he went to such lengths to get the damn broccoli.
He biked to the Chinatown wet market, which had sold out by lunchtime.
Then he biked to Cold Storage at China Square, which also didn't have it.
Finally he went to NTUC at Tanjong Pagar, and found it.
By then, he was soaking wet cos he'd spent 1hour plus biking under the hot midday sun.
And another hour cooking, marinating the chicken, preparing the pasta sauce etc.
I was truly touched when he told me.

The truth is, I don't think I've done anyth like this for him before.
He really is v sweet.

Plus the fact that he loooooves his car soooo much, yet he lets me drive it to work everyday.
While he takes the bus or bikes to his shop.

There are 2 carparks that serve our block.
One in front of the block, which is well-shaded and more convenient;
Another is at the block's rear, which is dirtier and i hate it.
But when we reach home at nite, the front carpark is usually full and we'll have no choice but to park at the back.

Every morning, he'll transfer the car to the front so it won't be hot inside when i use it.
And so i don't have to walk to the back of the block.
And he'd have warmed up the car so i can drive off straight away.
Plus when i wake up, there'll always be one cup of freshly-squeezed OJ in the fridge + breakfast on the table.
He leaves for work earlier than me, so before my day has even started, he's alredi done so much for me.
Every single day.

Why am I saying all these?
I dunno.
Just to remind myself what a gem of a husband I've got.
And to do my best to make sure he's happy everyday too.
Sometimes, i think it doesn't matter how things are.
Becos i've already got the most important thing in life.

Qiu's Wedding - 1st July 2007


The sisters' in RED! At 5am in Qiu's house!


The lobby of Amara Sanctuary


The beautiful villa.


Resplendent bride!


Tossing the bouquet....


The lucky receiver of the bouquet - Jas!


Us at Age 26.
4 married, 1 mother of 2, 1 pregnant, 1 engaged.


Qiuli's Wedding was a beautiful, splendid affair on Sunday.
I cannot describe how happy i am for her.
Words fail me.
I'm so glad that it all went so well for her that day,
especially knowing that she & Eric had practically done everyth themselves.
They signed no packages, and sourced for/planned every detail themselves.
Right down to printing their own invites, writing their own vows, briefing the waiters themselves etc etc.
It was seriously A LOT of effort!

The venue Amara Sanctuary was P-E-R-F-E-C-T.
Tranquil, quiet resort tucked away in Sentosa, behind the Tourism Academy, away from the crowded beaches, away from the traffic.
Yes, there are now traffic jams in Sentosa!
So don't ask me how when the IR is completed.

The ballroom was beautiful and so spacious. Beautiful.
The couple enjoyed a villa stay, with its own free/jacuzzi pool and outdoor showers.
The villa comprises 2 'huts' - one is the bedrm, one is the living area.
In the middle is the pool and sunbeds. Totally decadent.
There are also hotel rooms of course, but who will want a normal hotel room when u got those villas??

Their solemnisation was done in a dome-shaped glass pavilion in the resort too.
So it really was quite the perfect setting.
Qiuli wrote her own wedding vow to Eric, which he didn't know about!
It moved him to tears, and her too, and all the rest of us!
It really was very moving, and in all the 13 years I know Qiu, tis only the second time I've seen her cry.
So after a public sobbing session, she tossed the bouquet to the single females.
It was destined--- Jasmine caught it. Ha, that was really funny.
Cos she is the only one in our group yet to get hitched!
And we all know she's so up for marriage anyday!

The banquet started at 830.
Ok, nothing can be perfect. The food & service were crap.
Really really bad.
But theirs is the 1st wedding and 1st major event there, so we all tried to be forgiving.
They were so understaffed it was unbelievable.
Suffice to say, service was so excruciating slow that by (only!) the 2nd dish, everyone was idling, restless and walking about. Made the ballroom look v messy and dishevelled.
Things settled down ard the 5th dish and the dinner finished abt 11.30pm.
PLUS: All the dishes were served cold! Urghh!!!

But all ended well and it was a memorable nite.
For the couple and for us too.
We had loads fun at our table, cos all of us were her closest frens.
We got the 2nd best table after the VIPs and were right smack in the middle, by the aisle.
Qiu & Eric's speeches were very moving too, and their videos were topnotch!

Tis the first time I attended a wedding with the gals.
Shanmei's wedding - she didn't invite everyone, only me + Mel.
My wedding - i wasn't sitting there w them.
So tis time was really fun, to be involved right at 5am in the morning and be part of the troupe!

I really am super happie for Qiu + Eric.
After 7 long years and endless ups/downs, they finally tied the knot.
God bless their marriage forever.