Winds of Change

I was watching Marco sleep, and thought...

When it comes to this lil boy, I have honestly, hand-to-heart, gone flat out.
I can seriously say I HAVE DONE MY BEST.
He's not perfect, but I have tried all i can to have him as healthy and happy as I possibly, mortally can.
And i'm happy about it.
There is a kind of quiet, exhausting, fulfilled joy to this.

I wish I can say this about more things in my life, but I think this is probably the only thing i can say outright to God & myself.

Now that i'm going back to full-time work in a week, i can feel the stirrings of a new chapter.
Winds of change, if you will.
There will be a new momentum in our lives, new order/disorder to get used to, habits and lifestyle adjustments, priorities to rethink, divided focus.
But i am so proud of myself the last year.
For sticking to my decision and seeing Marco turn out so well.
For living so well despite a 50% reduction in pay.
For adjusting & adapting -- not my greatest strengths in my younger days.

Lots of new vibes in the air.
New home, new lifestyle, full-time work.....
Should be an exciting last 5 months to the year.