Ode to Motherhood

Can i love Marco any more??!!

Maybe it's cos i'm going back to work soon.
I'm cherishing every God-given day we have together.
Not even going out much, just hanging around at home, watching his silly funny cute antics, listening to that perfect voice of his etc.
Ever since we moved to my mum's place, we have been going out less.
Cos it's so freaking far from everywhere!
Instead, we hang out on the front porch or at the playground down the street.
That's enough fun for him!

But yes, i really do love these days.
I love how wonderful and angelic he is.
I don't want to sing his praises... as i'm too biased and should be the last person to do so. But i just love him to bits.
In fact, i think choosing to work part-time for a year to have more time with him, bring him up the way i want to, enjoy the PERFECT work-life balance --- it's the BEST decision i made.

Nothing beats absolute love from a child.
And i have that with Marco.
I can sense his great love for me.
His confidence that I'm always there, when he masters a new skill and when he stumbles and takes a bad fall; when he sleeps & awakes; when he's hurting or thrilled.
His good language skills, cos we pay real attention to him and never brush him off due to work fatigue/stress etc.
How he's such a happy kid. Always laughing, teasing, being cheeky.

For sure, there are areas he fall short in.
How i cannot get him to use the potty, for one!
And he can be a bit shy with strangers.
But i'm not complaining.
I was totally scared of strangers/school until i was like 7.
Can't help it if he took that from me.


I will miss these easy, breezy, carefree days when work resumes.
Days going to the garden, the beach, the malls, playgroups etc.
Days just enjoying moments with him, exploring stuff, watching him learn.

The saving grace is that i knock off by 3pm and still have half the day with him.
I love my job already!
But of cos, i'll be a lot more tired and less active than now.

I've tried so many things in life... nothing beats motherhood.
It fulfils me so completely and utterly and beautifully, it was the exact thing i yearned for without realising.
The thing is, motherhood is not just another phase/life stage.
It goes on forever. It's a role you take on for life, like it or not.
And i do love it.
Sure there are horrid days when i wanna pull out my hair and get the hell out of the house.
But mostly, i'm on a good roll.
I'm more grounded, mature, honest, patient, compassionate, light-hearted, happy, faithful (spiritually), optimistic and just really fulfilled.
Everyday is different.
There's SO MUCH to look forward to.
I no longer look for external/materialistic rewards or recognition.
One look at my boy and i know all the answers to my life.