half empty/half full

Went to the doc yesterday, a routine gynae check on how me and baby are doing.
Everything's pretty fine.
Baby's apparently 2.2kg now, though it feels loads more than that.
And the doc has advised me against a C-section birth.
He cited examples, the risks, and the very possible complications...
In short, he asked: why hazard these risks unnecessarily when you're perfectly normal and fine to deliver naturally?
He also said something I didn't realise:
That pregnant women are the only 'normal' people who come to the hospital, do something very normal (ie: deliver a child) and then get discharged with nary a complication.
Why fight nature, he said? More than 20,000 women give birth naturally each year...

Don't believe the hype of C-sect births, he said.
It's not just a cut on your tummy...the deeper cut is below and unseen, on the uterus.
And that's the dangerous one. You'll be nursing 2 deep long cuts, wat's the point?
No matter how tough a natural delivery, the risks are just not on the same scale and you will certainly recover within 2weeks max.

Moreover, I'm so young, he advised. Chances are, I may just have another child and a previous C-sect op will seriously complicate subsequent pregnancies, cos my uterus is already torn.

Blah blah blah...loads of medical stuff in there.
I really like this doctor.
My consultation with him always feels like very intellectual.
I ask, he answers. He says i ask more than any other patient.
And my questions are always loaded and informed, and he can tell i've done my research well.
He answers all my doubts and queries very thoughtfully too, and always tells me stuff no book or magazine ever clarifies. A very learned man indeed... who's been practising almost 30 years.
Unlike my previous gynae at Raffles Hospital, who casts all my questions aside and never wanting to spend more than 10minutes per visit.

So i am kinda persuaded to give natural delivery a try.
2-3 hours. With epidural administered the moment i get admitted.
If I can't take it, then i'll go for the C-section.
At Mount Elizabeth, there's no extra charges for changing my mind anyway.

Been a pretty tough 2 weeks.
But there's always the half-full way of looking at things rite?
The good part is, have been speaking to zenny more on the phone.
When crisis strikes, she's still the first one i turn to.
Even if she's so damn far away.

The bad part is, things doesn't seem to be coming up rosy.
But its all water under the bridge now, i suppose.