at One Fullerton

Went to One Fullerton yesterday with Terence.
It was, and is, our dating place.
And the place he proposed.
Yesterday was the first time we've been there since we got married.
i dunno why we stopped going this year.

It felt different being there with him last nite.
It was at once more intimate, yet a whole lot more casual n relaxed.
Gone were the tinges of grand romance or idyllic love.
Rather, it felt like i'd known him forever.
It wasn't better or worse, just surprisingly different.

As a couple, i daresay our relationship is a lot stronger now.
I'm less insecure and has (finally) learnt to trust a man wholeheartedly again.
It took a long time, but he is everything i needed to love again.
And i feel i can be totally myself with him.
It didn't always feel like that when we were dating.
I remember i used to try (pretty hard) to be a nicer, prettier version of myself.
I'll doll up for our dates or big occasions, always wanting him to see me at my best.
Our lives were so carefree - we had nothing much to deal with besides enjoying ourselves.

I'd describe our relationship now as sweet contentment.
Solid. Dependable. Comforting. And very very sweet.
He has no bad blood in him, unlike the scheming, complex me.
He makes my world a whole lot simpler and sweeter.
And till today, his kindness, integrity and gentle heart warms my soul.

So although i received terribly bad news yesterday,
and felt nothing like my good self,
a simple evening with my husband put everything back in perspective.