Its a rainy nice beautifool Sunday.

I miss my frens.
Sigh..everyone seems so busy.
With their boyfriends, their work... some are just too depressed to come out.
The only people i see regularly now, beliv it or not, are the MCM guys.
Joe, Weixiong, Walter, Leo....
We go jogging, movies, supper, dinner, talk rubbish...
The girls are busy...i dunno with wat.
Ellen's busy with her boyfren and work, and anyway, she is too unhappy to talk.
Debra's still in her perpetual depression.
Elizabeth is too busy with work.
Zenny gives tuition every night to earn $1000 extra each month.
Shanmei's busy with her new husband and pregnancy.
Mich and the rest ... can't be bothered to call them.
Melissa and the rest.... we only meet like once every few months.
Sigh, no friends.


I think girls and guys get v different when they reach middle-20s.
The guys start to really focus and go far in their careers..
But still make effort to juggle their social lives. Whether or not they're attached.

The girls get stuck in some work routine...while striving to find a life partner.
Those with luck finding then commit a lot of time and effort to try to get hitched.
Those who can't find a partner get depressed and unhappy and envious and just become sour.

Maybe tis doesn't apply around the world,
But its the apparent pattern for my friends.
Generally those with partners seem happier, more fulfilled, more social and altogether a joy to be with.
Those without just seems depressed, fixated on smthg beyond their control, sour/bitter and altogether a kill-joy.
Its very sad.... why do u need a partner to make u happy or complete ur life?
They have to know that you gotta be happy and love ur life and urself... no one can do tat for you.
I do have one truly happy single galfren, Wendy.
And i think that's because she doesn't suffer from low self-esteem and has entrusted her life and love to the Lord. Her spirituality and faith keep her grounded and truly joyful in her heart.

The guys on the other hand, can't be bothered.
They are all single anyway!
hhaha.
And they are still so happy, doing so many things and living such purposeful fulfilling lives.
Perhaps that's y i like to hang out with them.
They are more laidback, crack a lotta jokes and jus dun take all these love bullshit so seriously.
U get the idea tat their notion is: if it happens, it happens.
Its not the be-all and end-all of life.
So do I. I really tink these are stuff outta our control.
And that the more u try to control it in some way, the more miserable you'll be.

Thats why i think my guy pals are such attractive eligible bachelors whom i'm v proud of.
Whereas my single girlfrens just seem a bunch of depressing old spinsters.
I didn't wanna mince my words, not on my blog.

Why do girls become like that as they get older?
The insecurity, jealousy, competitiveness just drive me nuts.
Why can't they be the kinda frens they were in school?
Its like.....it degenerates into tis crazy charade of who has the better/more promising job?
Who's slimmer and prettier? Who got the richer/better boyfriend?
Who's happier and more blessed?
I just don't buy into all these bullshit.
We come out to chill and relax and catch up, not add to our stresses!

Anyway, that's only a handful of them.
But its enough to blow me off.
Toxic.