unconditional love

With a baby, life just gets unpredictable.

-- new maid has arrived
-- for some reason, i've put on 2kg
-- have stayed at my mum's house for 1 week, which is disruptive & helpful at the same time.
-- we are contemplating selling/downgrading the car
-- terence experienced his first facial ever
- i have a new addiction to twister rolls + cedele confectionery.


we are into April.
wow.

Watched WAITRESS on dvd last nite.
I'm a Keri Russell fan from her Felicity days.
Turns out to be really moving, and wat great timing.
I wept after the movie.

And i think about society is jsut so screwed.
Mothers and everyone alike downplay the significance of their children, of motherhood.
It really is one of the grandest moments and best periods of one's lifetime.
But in a society as screwed as ours, we downplay it to nothing more than a lil distraction, or a
brief lapse in your career, or a great inconvenience.
How it affects your career, how it costs so much to bring up a child, the pressure & labour of it all, sacrificing your freedom etc etc.
Everything is about --- how to juggle it.

What about truly enjoying it, and living it?
Truly being happy with your baby, and feel privileged, blessed to have those moments that some can only wish for.
To understand the real cycle of life, and to revel in providing for your own child.
To finally have a shot at comprehending the depth and magnitude of unconditional love.
To feel so contented, completed & in the moment.

I remind myself everyday... what a real blessing Marco is.
He is one in a million, and he is all mine.
Every gene, every heartbeat, every smile of his... is all mine.
What else in life can be that?

I hope for everyone to one day experience the unconditional love that is parenthood.
It can only come from God to us, and from us to our children.