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Sunday, March 09, 2008

2-7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am turning 27.
It may just be the last time i 'celebrate' my birthday.
cos frankly, if turning 27 costs me so much agony, i really don't wanna look at 28,
or God forbid, whatever that lies beyond.

I was thinking of doing something special for myself.
Just to feel like myself, or rather, a better, time-forgotten version of myself.
And i do think i deserve it, after the last 1 1/2 years given to pregnancy, marriage, and motherhood.
The last time i looked & doted & focused on myself, i was 25.
And then i stepped in too deep into this....

It's a cliche to say time passes too fast.
I think more likely than not, it's cos we don't cherish to day to day.
i'll be the first to admit that i don't.
I almost will my entire week away, in my eagerness to see the weekends.
Mondays-Fridays are like 80% of our lives...so what does it say when we want it to pass quickly and then turn around to say, "wow, time flies!"?

I wish i can do a lot more things.
I wish i have time to run, without thinking if that extra 2 hrs are better spent with my son, seeing as it is, more than half my day goes to work.

I wish i have time to do yoga, or just be quiet.

I wish i have time to read a good book, esp the last 2 i bought in good intention.

I wish i have time to do a facial mask at home.

I wish i have time to just chat with my husband about nothing. Not household stuff, not our son, not our maid, not money, not the car, not arrangements...just nothing in particular.

I wish i have the time to cook everyday.

I wish i have the time to bring my son to the park/garden every day, just for him to gawk at the beautiful greens.


So, back to turning 27....
How should I mark this birthday?
With a trip?
With a family thingy?
With a personal run?
With a blast or a party?

Or maybe just surround myself with all things I love.
Things that allow me to be in my element.
I haven't used that phrase in a while - in my element.
Prob cos i haven't felt that for a long while.
I love that phrase.
It's when people are intrinsically themselves.
Unlike being in a comfort zone, being in your element is like bringing up the best of yourself.
You aspire and inspire when you are doing the things that you love the most.

For me, these would be:
- when i run & stretch
- when i see beautiful clothes
- when i travel

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