Searching

I have this strange feeling as the year dawns.
I dunno how to describe it, except that i've been feeling it for days.
It's a searching feeling... like i'm on the hunt for something.
Something to complete things? I dunno.
I feel like i'm on the cusp of something.
That i may discover it soon, if i 'search' long & hard enough.
What is it? Where is it? What will lead me to it?
Have you ever felt like this?

i know that i'm not doing things right.
And that, perhaps, God didn't mean for me to continue my folly into 2009 as well.
It feels like a new path to something better.
And it ain't trivial.
It's hard to ignore deep-in-your-guts feelings like this.

Will it come from work? From church? I dunno...
i hope i will 'get' it soon, as in, know what this is.
At least i can spend time to set things right, if they have been so wrong.

It's silly, you probably think i'm writing some stupid riddle.
Believe me, i feel the same way.

I feel like this IS the answer for the whole year.
Or at least, for a long time.