NEW PC!!!

My home PC is up and running.
My fantastic and genius brothers got it up for me.
And after more tweaking from Aloy just now, it is working damn fine now!

I love it.
I love surfing + chatting at home.
Really really nice.
It seems to be even better than my office PC!

Hooray!

my hubby

Feeling v happy today.

Probably cos my husband cooked me a wonderful lunch yesterday and I'm still reeling from it.
Steamed whole fish, broccoli + carrots + chicken soup.

Probably cos he's such a sweetheart to fetch me for lunch, cook then wash up.
I didn't have to lift a finger.
It was such tremendous effort and he brushed it off like it was nothing.

Probably cos I still can't believe he bought me a computer,
even though we are both short on cash this month,
and are saving for a huge cupboard in the other room.
The broadband is activated today, so i have a new toy at home!

Probably cos I can't believe how sweet he is all this time.
He never once said i'm fat and always calls me beautiful.
I really lucked on to something good.

I feel so loved.

Hilarious Hens Nite for Qiu

It was really crazy, mad, hilarious and just pure insane.
We made her do the craziest, ugliest + most embarassing stuff of her life and the woman just lap it up! Very sporting!
Truly one of the most fun nites I've had in a bloody long time.

The Hooters staff were really sporting about all of these too, even lending us their staff outfit!
Coincidentally, there were 2 other Stags Nites going on too, both ang moh guys.
So we joined in at times, making use of each others' "candidates".
It was so hilarious.
Qiuli was left with no ego/no face by the time she stumbled out of that place.
Don't think she can ever return...

At about 11pm, we left for Hacienda at Dempsey.
That bar was a bit more classy/quiet than in-your-face-Hooters.
But we still managed to bring the place down with the help of a lot of alcohol.
Qiu was so drunk she puked all the way home.
I was, of course, sober as hell cos I didn't have a drop.
But it was all fun, fun, fun.

Went for prata supper + Mac Iced Tea at my old Bkt Timah plc with Terence and his bro after that. Missed that place.... and my fave Boon Tong Kee chix rice.
I used to always call home and ask Aloy which prata he wants after eating.
It felt weird to not do that and drive off in a diff direction after that.

A terrific weekend after a horrible, depressing week.
Much needed relief.

Where in this world do you feel absolutely safe and good?
When something happens and you need to run away, escape, hide?
Where would you go? Who would you seek?

I remember Gerald saying to me last year before he left.
Anytime i need a hideout, look for him.
And it's always in my head.

We may all have frens and family,
but when we want to escape from all these, retreat/hibernate for a while, be far from the familiar and be by ourselves, yet not literally alone........where would u go?
Gerald is the only person i can think of in these times.

I crave for change.
I crave for my life and myself.
I feel like i'm devoting everything to Terence and the baby.
What is left of me? The me that only i myself know?
I do feel like gog away too........

keira kilos

Is it me, or does Keira Knightly look scarily scrawny in this Vogue shoot?

I mean, the clothes are ravishing....but she is all bones....and not exactly attractive.

She's hardly filling up the beautiful designer wear.

Maybe her anorexia rumours are true after all.

What a waste of such a gorgeous shoot -- in Africa to boot!

My 26th!

At Terence's shop

Me all chubby and round at 6 months preggers!

Dinner at Mexican/Spanish restaurant Tapas Tree.

Yummy yummy Spanish fare at Tapas Tree.

Lovely lovely food that is quite expensive.
Expensive cos the servings are tiny!
But super delicious and lovely stuff.


We had both taken the day off.
After cutting hair in the morning, we had chicken rice at his fren's shop at Tanjong Pagar.
Terence scared his fren by ordering half a chicken for 2 persons!
Hhaaa....and we actually managed to finish it all!
Don't look at me.... I ate normally. It's my husband who can really whack!

Then we shopped in town where he bought more stuff than me!
I was kidding that it seems more like his bday!
It was a lovely time.
We went around Taka and Isetan, and it was nice.
It's so rare Terence goes shopping in town with me for a day.
Even on Sundays (his only day off), we usually dun have the luxury to really enjoy shopping.

Then he became so bored when we were at Topshop,
only cos i so badly wanted to check out the new Kate Moss collection.
Sad, cos clearly, i can't fit into anything.
So, did not get anything.
The jeans looked fantastic, though I'll never find out how it fits!

We then had dinner at this damn shiok Mexican restaurant Tapas Tree.
It's really great food at high prices!
The servings were disappointingly small.... can't deny i felt a bit cheated when the food arrived.
We ordered meatballs -- there were 4 small ones in a tiny weeny bowl.
We ordered asparagus with ham -- six pathetic twig-thin sticks of asparagus came.
We ordered chicken and beef grill - 3 satay-like sticks of chix, beef and mushrooms.
The servings may be ok for the ladies, but Terence was definitely still hungry after 3 dishes!

But the "noodle" main dish tops the cake man.
It's so good I still think of it now.
Total $$$ came out to be about $90.
Well, i would return, but only for the yum yum noodles.
Whatever "noodles" that was. Very unique!

I had a great great lovely time yesterday.
The food, the love, the vibes.

By the way, my biggest present this year - my new Computer!
Yea, i finally have got a cool PC at home.
Going to Singnet later to get my Internet.
Soon, i'll even be able to work from home.
Fantastic!

Also had a mini celebration with the girls on Thursday.
Eliz and Mich got me a Topshop giftcard. They do know me well huh?
Denise got me a photoframe from movie stills - pretty cool.
And had yummy Italian lunch with Shiyun on Saturday too.

Sunday was family day - my whole family had conspired with Terence to spring me a surprise!
They entered my house without me knowing and presto, when I opened the door of the other room, I saw Candice, Mum & Dad with my new ACER computer!
Leon and Aloy had fixed it earlier and my parents delivered it here.
It was really a shock to see them all!
Then we headed for lunch at Crystal Jade.
I felt so loved....

Yes, this birthday, i feel soooo loved.
My husband also got me a huge Haagen Daaz cake in my fave flava!
Strawberry cheesecake wrapped in dark choc!
OOooh! Heavenly!!!

Thanks for all your lovely greetings and phone calls!
I really do feel soooo loved.
Here's to a greater year ahead, lived in His Grace!

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

extremes in a day

Had dinner + drinks with the girls to celebrate my 26th yesterday.
Ate tonnes at the Village, then desserts at NYDC, then drinks at Balcony Bar.
Can whack rite?? I was still feeling full this morning!
Nice time and v sweet of them.

But the afternoon prior to that was really unpleasant.
Hate hate hate it.

My maternity wear

Just bought a load of maternity wear.

Let me show off my loot here.

They are not maternity per se la, just larger-than-normal ones from Dorothy Perkins.

In any case, they are cheaper than those in maternity boutiques.

I actually quite like wearing them.

Comfy roomy dresses for my expanding belly.

Went solo maternity shopping ystday at Marina Square.

Terence had some association dinner at Red Star.

I was bored at home so drove to MS at about 8pm for some shopping b4 the mall close.

Money well-spent, I'd say!

Should i get it?

Ted Baker Romana Top: Rear & Front

Here's a dilemma:

Spotted a gorgeous, cannot-take-my-eyes-off-it top at Ted Baker.

Trouble is,

I'm pregnant and obviously can't fit into it now.

And it costs $180!

Should i just get it anyway, and wear it after delivery?
I mean, i do know my size before pregnancy...

Trouble is, i dunno if i'll still be that size after!

Dilemma!!! I have been gog to vivo for a few days and each time,

seeing it hanging there just kills me!

I need to wear this gorgeous thing.

The picture is not clear enough...

There are actually light dots on the top, its not plain white.

And the material is silk-polyester, utterly divine.
**To buy or not to buy??!!

** usually, tis just means i'm gonna get it. Sigh.

Top picks from Costume Institute Gala @ NY Metropolitan Museum

Rare appearance - Former face of Ralph Lauren, model Bridget Hall

Model Jessica Stam in John Galliano

Another rare one - supermodel mum Christy Turlington

Cameron Diaz - love the accessorising

Molly Sims - in a gorgeous dress

Insomnia

Launching Thursday, 16 May.


Gorgeous Botkier Bag

Gosh, I have officially contracted insomnia.

Woke up at 3.30am in the spooky pre-wee morning....

And only returned to bed at 7am.

How bloody weird is that?

Watched a dumb Kelly Brook movie and

actually heard the papers arriving at my doorstep at 530am!

Freaked myself.

At Work:

A colleague got sacked today.

Well, i can't say I'm shocked cos he kinda deserved it.

Regular MCs, MIA, can't write, can't perform, irresponsible, skiver.

Don't even know how he got hired 5 months ago.

But oh well, hope he takes it in his stride.

Pity my vexed boss.

but tis marks the first time I've seen someone sacked!

No prior warning!

At Reuters, the last time they wanted to fire someone,

they gave him a stern warning and a 3-month ultimatum to shape up or get out.

Which is like 90 days of hell & humiliation,

cos all your colleagues will know and people will be talking abt it.

Which is worse?

Craving: Fashion fixes + Pasta + loads of lovin'

Aversion: Maternity wear + Weighing Scale of any kind

Wishing: For a major shopping spree + good haircut + Home PC

Enjoying: Flexi work hours where i can go home at 3pm daily. Yummy!

Hoping: Pay raise + Diet control

Loving: Harpers Bazaar visuals + Marco Woo Jnr + baby clothes.

Obsession: Credit bills (??!! incredible for someone who thot she'd stopped shopping!)

Life Later

Was taking a walk during lunchtime just now...
And was preoccupied with -
What will I be like after the pregnancy?

What will my life be like???
Was chatting with my rooters ex-colleagues this morning and...
I just wondered, will my life still be the same?
Will i still love sports?
Will i still have time for sports, running, biking, swimming?
Or will these 9 months of inactivity lure me to lethargy forever?
Will i forget my love for running and sweating and pushing myself?
Will i still be motivated to do what I used to do - wake up before dawn for a run?
Or will the baby tire me out?

Will i still hang out and chill out with frens?
Will i still be obsessed with fashion & clothes?
Will i still check out new stuff with frens, new bars, clubs, restaurants etc?
Will i still club?
I mean, i'm never a hardcore clubber or anything.
But i do need my 'fix' sometimes.
The booze, the music, the laughter, the smoky air, the mess, the hangover.
Or simply an excuse to dress up for a nite out and about.

Gosh, all these used to make up my life.
And to date, i've totally stopped for 5 months.
Will i resume, or is this permanent damage?
It scared me suddenly, to think my life will never be the same again.

And if i were to still pursue all these, what will happen to my baby?
I'm gonna be a mother, for goodness sake!
I entertained the thot of letting my mum take care of the baby...
But it just seems so selfish and cruel of me.

At the same time, I cannot envision a life doomed to domesticity.
i'm seriously too young for that.
Nappies, milk feeds, baby shopping etc.
I will certainly do it for the first few months...
but at some point, my life's gotta return to normal rite???

It would be too dreadful & tragic if my life was to mirror Shanmei's.
I mean, she's a good fren, but her life and the dullness/domesticity of it turns me off so much.
Really.
I don't want my life to revolve ard only my husband and baby.
They can be at the core of it, but not 24/7!
My soul is ever-curious, ever-mobile and ever-seeking.
I loved my life the way it was. Colourful, fulfilling and fun.
I don't want it all to go away just cos of a baby.

I still wanna do things my guy frens do.
I still wanna sit at coffeeshops and talk rubbish with them.
I still wanna meet frens all the time and bitch.
I still wanna run.
I still wanna buy loads nice clothes.
I still wanna travel travel travel.
I still wanna be super-active.

The question is: can i?
*shudder*

Love + Food

My baby is cooking for me today!
In fact, he has been cooking for me a couple of days.
It is really so sweet and touches my heart.

Whenever i crave home-cooked food, he usually drives up to my mum's house where I'll ask my maid to prepare for us.
But now that Amy is away for a month, Terence has took up cooking!
Incredible, the man used to only know how to eat!

He knows the basics like vegs etc, but is not very good with fish and the complex ones.
But he's learning from his grandma, and a couple of days back, he steamed an entire fish himself.
It was really really nice and soft and very yummy.

Today, he's making pasta!
When he doesn't even like Western food.
Just cos he knows how much i love pasta and PastaMania stuff.
I can have it everyday and not be sick of it.

I'm seriously touched and bowled over.
My husband is an amazing man, with so much love and goodness in his heart.
He goes to the Outram Park wet market to get the ingredients in the morning, and then prepares my lunch in his grandma's shop.
And then washes up everything after the meal.

I'm very looking forward to my pasta today!
First time he's attempting Western cuisine....
It really makes me feel so loved and happy that he's gog to all these lengths.
And i keep thinking what else i can do for him.
To make him as happy and fulfilled as he does for me.

EPL Champs

Champs again!

Manchester United I love.

crabs and weddings

I had a weird craving last week.
For chilli crabs!
That surprised even myself - i don't even like crabs in the first place.
Don't eat it, don't crack it, don't touch it.
And now I'm craving for it???

Anyway, i didn't get to satisfy that odd craving.
Cos it was just too troublesome and expensive!
Perhaps that's why i'm still thinking of it now.... heh.
Someday, someday.
Any recommendations?

Qiuli had her sisters' gathering at her place yesterday.
It was really nice to see her and the gang + Rui.
Been like at least 3 months since i saw Rui.
He's such a nice soul, really.
Someone needs to find this chap a good gal!
There were loads of food, wine and desserts.
The Brownie Factory's brownies were really good....
And i am really really looking forward to her wedding at the Amara Sanctuary.
Hers will be the first wedding at this new resort-hotel - pretty cool.
Seen her wedding pics shot there, looks idyllic and quite awesome.

Life is slow now.
5 1/2 months almost!

Wish List

• Computer
• Facial package at Aspara Spa
• Weekly supply of home-brewed bird's nest
• Pasta Mania's pasta recipes
• Dresses from Juliette boutique at Holland Village
• Maternity wear from GAP Women
• Kate Moss for Topshop collection
• Confinement nanny + maid forever