Yes I am very stressed.
It's easy to tell, really.
I spend like crazy.
Eat junk food and skip my main meals.
Sleep late. Wake up super early.
Easily agitated. Constantly frustrated.
just short of barking mad.
I think it is so difficult to be a modern woman.
To straddle the middle ground.
It is just impossible and makes you raving mad inside.
I am a person of extremes. Moderates are for losers and convention.
Look at all the pressure pots we need to upkeep.
You need to have a proper, self-sustaining career, so people can see your brains
And think you lead a purposeful, fufiling, meaningful 'modern' life.
One should never aspire to be a tai-tai, kept woman, married-but-idle lady of leisure, housewife or full-time mother.
But instead deal with the erratic boss, colleagues n politics, long hours and still look a million dollars at 6pm and more importantly, look like you love your job.
You need to look good, at ALL times.
From the moment you wake up... and probably even while you sleep.
Yes, it is true. And yes, tis is so overlooked and underestimated.
To look good, you need LOADS OF CASH.
But yet... you must not be a shopaholic. Must not be a label-whore.
Must not be a spa-addict. Should not waste money on a gym/spa membership.
Yet, you are expected to be svelte, fat-free, youthful and pretty with shiny hair, radiant skin, glossy lips and neat nails. And dress well, look 'presentable'.
What is looking
presentable anyway?
In Singapore, it simply means looking corporate and like you earn a respectable salary.
You must also be able to keep your man.
Whether it's your husband or boyfriend or lifestyle-sponsor.
So you should not flare up but be calm.
Should not have a short fuse or raging temper, even if you feel like burning the house down.
Should be accommodating, understanding and supportive, esp. ard World Cup season.
Should make an effort to socialise with his frens as you are shunning yours and just wanna stay home to hibernate and rot.
Should worship the in-laws knowing it's hypocrisy to the T.
Should be appreciative of him and all he does, even though its not vice versa.
Should make him feel like the man in the relationship, even tho you are brought up to be a tough, independent chick and fight for yourself.
On top of all these,
Should still take care not to neglect your frens & family.
Should be a good daughter and communicate to siblings and parents often.
Or risk being lacerated by guilt and sadness.
My life is one constant busy whirl.
I don't get to see my parents n siblings as often as I wish (ie: everyday).
But if more than 2-3 days pass without me seeing them, I feel sad, guilty n wonder what they are doing etc.
And frens as well.
Schedules clash, you meet less often, your friendship also drifts somewhat.
It's very sad. Next thing you know, they have changed job/got the Master's/got engaged/got married/have kids/have 2nd kid/lost 10kg/gained 10kg/slumped into depression/emerged from depression/having an affair/cut the hair....
I think this is the twenties really.
The decade where people cram as much as humanly possible into their lives.
The result is frazzle and upheavals.
And because everyone has their own shit,
You should not air this to everyone lest you sound like a whiner n insensitive to everyone else's distresses.
If you are not jobless, ugly, fat and/or single, you have no right to complains.
The alternative? Blog it.
I need to slow down.
I need to live and breathe.
So do you.
