I am becoming very fat.
Fat belly!!!
Now i know how enviable a flat tum is.
It really makes all the difference.

On a sunnier note, my best fren called today for a long chat.
Was nice to hear her nonsense and a very familiar voice again.
Then again, if she were here, she'll probably still think i'm normal.
Having seen me in various shapes/heights/sizes/colours before.
She's seen me stick-thin in school, so-so in poly, then fat+ugly when i returned from oz, then back to my usual crap....then all grown up on my wedding day...
All with nary a comment. Sizes just seem to pass her by....

She's missing my big-belly stage man!!!
When she returns, i'll be in the most disastrous postnatal/confinement stage!
Oh gosh!

Why am I so shallow?
I shld be focusing on the growing baby.
The fatter my belly gets, the healthier, stronger and bigger my baby is.
I shld be happy.
Must focus, focus, focus.
Don't always be so vain, think of myself/clothes/appearances....
Oh man, I wonder how the hell i'm gonna get back in shape after this horrendous ordeal.