back home

Oh, the last day of my 9-day long exile from work.
A tinge of sadness
And torrid anticipation of how i'm gonna catch up at work.
Urghh...sianz!

Back fr bangkok on Friday.
Gosh, i really don't need another trip to remind myself that
1) No, i don't really like buying loads of cheap lousy goods,
even if they're really darn bloody cheap!
2) I can't breathe in Bangkok. The air is assaulting.

But i see it more like a first time travelling with terence than any big trip.
It's jus 4 days of relaxing, shopping, idling, doing nothing...just tat its in BKK instd of SG.
U know how they say travelling with someone lets u see the person in diff perspectives...
Well, i did.

Headed to Upp Thomson for the best prata immediately when we touched down.
I actually miss SG man, aft jus 4 days.
The food, my mommy, my car, my frens, the clean breezy air....the crispy curry prata!

5 Happy Things

I was just abt to throw in the towel.
Things were going haywire.
I dunno how much the night shifts has taken its toll,
But it has got to play a part.

I was getting emotionally, mentally and physically wrecked.
Headaches, gastrics, the constant reversal of everyth that amounts to a "normal"life.
Missing family frens and everyth in between.
Cos frankly, when you START work at 8pm or 11pm, you arén't exactly Miss Popular.
Terence though, has been a lifesaver.
The only thin thread keeping my sanity intact.
Each night when i finish at 4am, he'll be there waiting.
Waking up in the middle of his precious short sleep to fetch me back.
I am touched.

And the one night that he didn't say he'll come fetch me,
I drove home myself, lonely and sian and wishing someone's awake to talk to me.
Cos i've just gotten off work, and just like pp who knock off at 6pm, i still yearn to relax and chat.
And then i parked a long way off from my gate
just so i can walk a lil and enjoy the cool pre-dawn air.
Only to find him sitting outside my house.
I was so happy.
If he hadn't done all of that, we would hardly have seen each other for more than a month.
I've been on the sickening night shift for 6 weeks....including weekends.
I dun wanna whine, but it is dreadful.

The good news is, I'm off the night shift for June.
Dunno if the sequel will return in July...but i'm safe for tis month.
Phew. Praise the Lord.
My semblance of a life will return.

The second happiest thing: My cold war with zenny has ended.
We met at holland v last week, and things are cool.
Back to normal.
For some strange reason.... mainly due to her over-thinking and stuck in a big rut,
We have not seen/spoken/had any contact for half a year.
Just totally out of each other's life.
Ard my birthday, she text me and sent me a gift by mail.
And we met up the following week...and she announced she is out of depression/manic thinking/all that is not good/sorted out her life.
I am so glad, overjoyed totally, to have my best fren back.


Third happiest thing: The Great Singapore Sale is here.
Its just excellent shopping when everything is at least 20% off.
And these are the shops considered to be "not really having a sale".
I don't bother with those where there are massive discounts,
cos it kinda resembles a trash bin with maggots (singaporeans, that is).


Fourth happiest thing: Going to Bangkok on Tuesday!!!
It's been about 4 yrs since my last trip.
Can hardly wait.

5th Happiest thing: I'm in love.
About 3 months into the game, I don't feel "odd" or "weird" anymore.
Its all good and lovely and warm and sickeningly sweet.
Very nice. Its been worth the wait.


So, tis really quite a happy lovely weekend ain't it?
Praise God, the creator of all of my bliss and love and joys and lessons.

After today's night shift, I will finally get to rest for 3 days.
Its been 2-3 crazy incredibly long weeks of endless consecutive late night shifts.
The kind where i sleep at dawn, or later.

You may laugh, but I was a morning person before this.
I'm those irritating kind that's all perky and cheery and energetic in the morning, just becos my system agrees a lot with sunshine and great beginnings.
Haven't felt that way since hell rained on me these nights.

Its been more than tough.
And its damaging me bit by bit.
You don't see or feel the changes all at once.
It just creeps up on you.
My mood is worse.
I am lethargic, slow, suffering fr headaches.
Impatient, rude, listless, tired.
Basically feeling like an old cow.
Not great.

Oh well.
There's got to be worse things in life than night shifts,
So i'll shut up now.

Haven't been nice to Terence either.
He's getting the short end of this evil stick.
I don't mean to be mean,
but i'm just in a "Don't come near" mood these days.
Very easily frustrated.
Always feels like somebody owes it to me to be nice,
Cos i'm suffering.
Ha, how pathetically nonsense can i get?
This.


Things at work ain't looking up either.
Two were sacked.
I think another's on the way out, cos a new Japanese guy joined us today.
Is it gonna be me soon? Sigh.

I really think my office is the U.N. central of Singapore.
Constantly, pp around me come fr places i've never been or seen.
And I only mean those sitting near me...
So if you take the whole office into account, it'll prob blow my mind.
I've got editors and colleagues from Serbia, Chile, India (all parts, even Kashmir), Cananda, South America (1 fr each country there, i reckon), South Africa, Netherlands, Belgium, UK, etc.
Its crazy, the accents.
You end up talking to those pp whose accents you can decipher.
And when we call those photogs abroad, it jus gets so much worse.
Especially those from Russia, Yemen, German, Italians, Vietnamese, Thais....
I jus crave listening to Cheena chinkos and singlish and hokkien/cantonese after work!

OK, not all's bad and rotten.
It will be Bangkok in a fortnight's time.
14 June.
For 4days.
Good, i've been yearning to shop there for so long.
I've long given up on nice expensive things.
Seems the more u work, the poorer u end up.
Figured if 90% of Chinatown, Far East plaza and Bugis Village, my fave cheapo haunts these days, get their ware from Bangkok, i may as well fly there too.
P/S: JB's another of my cheapo hangouts too! Half hour away, and with toll charges lower than ERP! And don't u love the ringgit?

Next stop: Melbourne and Amsterdam.
I need cash bad.
I don't just hope to be retained at Reuters,
I hope for a pay raise!!!

Praise God.
Love.