First time blogging at work.
Thing is, if i don't blog at work,
I realise i don't blog at all.
I really haaardly touch the computer at home now.

Its 2006, can u believe it?
Well and into it.
Late January before we know it.

It seems as if so much has passed in such a short time.

1. I have cut my hair. Super layered. Not exactly my favourite look...!!! Living with it.

2. Chatted with Gerald. He's breaking up and said he wanted to wait for me. I didn't have the heart to tell him I"m getting married, and for this reason, is now guilt-stricken. Said he's dropping by in April. I couldn't have imagined the train of thoughts this conversation set off. It made me contemplate flying to Melbourne just to see him. For wat? I am not entirely sure. If for nothing, maybe just to tell myself to leave no stones unturned before i get married. To look him in the face and see how i feel for him, so that i really can stop thinking. Sometimes one real look is all it takes to know forever. I have to add that this came during a rough patch with Terence, and the temptation was certainly there. And also, i really miss his friendship. Some things that we miss, we miss for so long that it just becomes.... I dunno wat. I have missed him for about 7 years. Now? Figured i can't do this to Terence. I can't jus take off for a week and tell him I'm gog to look for another guy. It wouldn't make any sense. But I think to myself - wouldn't that be really nice? I do love Gerald in a way he and I may never know. Another sad love story isn't it?

Like i told a fren, we really are not fated. And fate is soo important. The right place n right time does wonders. Look at Terence. I hardly would think he was my type at first...but the timing of our relationship was just perfect. We were both at the right place n stage of our lives to be together. And next month, we will be husband and wife. I knew him 4 years ago, and I never imagined he would one day be my boyfren, let alone husband. And look at Gerald. We fancied each other for 8 years, but have never had the chance to be together. Or even in the same country at the same time for long. It's so sad. But I totally accept this. I am in love another wonderful man so wanting to spend his whole life with me.

3. Zenny turned 25. And is leaving for the States in a month. I know I will miss her till she returns late 2007.

4. I am on the night shifts again. For 15 long nights. Probably the longest of my life.

5. I am getting married next month. It is just unbelievable. I am sooo happy to be getting married to Terence. He is a wonderful man. I have never had a boyfriend like him who makes me feel this way. We are going to sign the very documents that will pronounce us husband and wife, the first step to spending the rest of our lives together. I am so happy for myself. It really gotta be the best thing in my life. I try not to smile to myself stupidly or break into a skip whenever i think about it at inappropriate times. Like now, at work.

6. Chinese NY is round the corner. The air is festive again. Love it.